Happy 30th Birthday MatsuJun!!

Dearest Jun-kun,

I promised to you last year that I will make a very heartwarming letter on your 30th birthday. I hope I could stand this. LOL. So okay, let me try this very cheesy and very “heartwarming” open letter to you. I would also try my best to write in the universal language—English. If only I could speak and write in Japanese, I would do so, but we are lost in translation, babe. I could only speak in simple Japanese phrases. But don’t worry, I will try to learn to speak in your language… fluently. I hope so. Someday.

So here it goes…

I am so thankful to your parents for bringing you into this world. I feel so blessed… so lucky to know you. It may not be in person, but I know someday we will get to meet. *tiwala lang* . You are an inspiration for me to try harder in life. That dreams are not impossible to reach. Dreams are attainable as long as you give your one hundred percent best to conquer it. You have become a motivation to me. Without knowing you, I wouldn’t have known my other ambitions in life. I mean, well, aside from becoming the “next big thing” in the world of romance writing or be a big shot businesswoman and a realtor, this may sound corny and all, but you have become a goal to me. And I would do everything to see you in person, to step on the same ground and breathe the same air as you do. I’m not sure when, but I know in this heart of mine it’ll happen.

If it’s not because of you, I wouldn’t have anything to do in my life. Sounds pathetic, huh? Well, I consider myself a boring person. If I had not come to know you, I wouldn’t have a life. I wouldn’t have been fangirling over you and your group Arashi. Well, you see, I don’t have that much social life. It’s not like it’s my thing, actually. I only go out with my friends if I wanted to go out but most of the time, I love it when I stay at home and stare at you on my pc. #Patheticmuch. wtf. I enjoy every show that you are in. I love watching you… seeing you. I love hearing you talk. Not much on hearing you sing *laughs*.

I wish you would get to know all these things. However, I’m just fooling myself, I know. This doesn’t sound rational and you may find I’m bordering crazy but I have never loved any man, ordinary or celebrity, as much as I loved you. And I even doubt myself If I am capable of loving a man aside from you. I am serious, you know. You are not just an idol to me. You are more than that. I see you as a real person, a person who has a kind heart, a person who is hardworking, passionate, committed, a person made up of awesomeness and ah-mazeballs… the kind of man I would be so proud to tell the world, “This is my man, eat your hearts out bitches!”.  And it’s not because of the good things I see in you why I love and adore you so much, I’ve said this last year and I’m going to say this again, I love everything about you!!! Pimple-marks and all.

I always believe that you are a great friend. And how I wish I had a guy friend like you. I could learn a lot of things from you. You know, I often imagine we’re traveling around the world and doing foolish things together. I certainly think that it’s awesome to be your friend but I prefer being your lover and do wonderful and crazy and nasty stuffs with you.

My dearest MatsuJun, I thank you for gracing this world. I thank you for making me happy… for the reason of my smiles. I thank you for being my motivation. You are one of the reasons why I want to take this journey they call LIFE. You made my life worth living for. #cheesy. I mean, to be honest, I always ask myself, what’s my reason for living? And then your name pops into my head. Wtf.

Happy Birthday, babe. This is the start of your new journey. A new decade for you. I know you have a bright future ahead of you, especially in your career. You are now in your 30s and I wish you’d get to enjoy it as much as you enjoyed your 20s. You’ve become older, wiser, and more mature. But I know there’s still a “kid” in your heart that would never go away. Yes, I know it. We’re close, right? Lol. I wish for more blessings to come your way because you totally deserve it.

… And I wish… someday…

We could find each other and live together with our happily ever after. XD

I promise to love and support you forever. I’m not going to stop being your fan. Even when the time comes you choose to get married to a bitch. But I hope not. I wish for greater things in your life. Including the girl who’ll eventually become your lifetime partner. I wish it’s me. But it’s like I’m asking for the moon. But I’m never going to give up my dreams of us being together in the end. Wtf. I know it’s crazy but I ain’t gonna stop. I love you, my life, my world, my everything, my number one, my Matsumoto Jun.

Thank you so much God for giving us MATSUMOTO JUN.

Love Always,

PS: Did I succeed in making this letter a heartwarming one? I did not? Yeah, I know.