Happy 32nd birthday MatsuJun!

Happy 32nd birthday to the greatest love of my life ~ Matsumoto Jun !!! Wishing you all the best in the world (as always)! Thank you for keeping me happy for the last 10 years! If I had not known you or Arashi, I'd probably gone crazy with boredom. LOL! Just want to let you know that even if I'm fangirling over with the other guys, I'll always be your girl and you're always be my favorite man in the world! I love you forever!

29. OMG.

Off to watch Attack on Titan yesterday.
OOTD : Shirt from Cosmic Concept Manila, Shorts from Bench,
Shoes from Vans and ONE OK ROCK 35xxxv tour bag.

Holy cow! I'm effin' 29 already! wtf. I'm almost an ahjumma = middle age woman. LOL.

I'm 29 and yet I feel like 19.

I thank all the people who remembered to greet me last Saturday. And I don't want to sound melodramatic because I've already done that on my IG post. And I've also said my wishes and that's to have a stronger relationship with God--- it's still the most important thing for me. God knows how much I wanted that to happen.

I'm not wishing for a life partner or a boyfriend or anyone to date. If God is willing to give me a man in my life, then I'd be happy. If it's not in His plans, I'm also very thankful to Him. That means our Lord have a better plan for me and He knows best. And I trust Him with everything.


But yeah, I also want to have a stable career and have a better future. And I hope to find what my purpose in life is.

Thank you everyone! I love you all!

Hello August 2015!

It's the time of the year~ my birth month and so is MatsuJun's. I'm not sure if I'll get excited or what. This will be the last year I'm in my 20s. Shucks! I'm so old. wtf. Time really does fly so fast. I just hope good things will come when I reached my 29th year of existence. LOL.


But... It's already half of the year and I haven't finished a single manuscript. Like seriously, I'm too lazy to finish the MS I was writing a few months back. I think I have stopped writing for more than two months now. And I'm not sure if I'll ever get my groove back again. This has happened to me for years, but this will be the first time that a manuscript took me more than five months to finish it... but I haven't even finished Yuan and Cassie's story which I have started writing since December of last year. I got fed up with the story and I don't know. I think if you write something you really don't believe in, it's really hard for the writer to have the characters a happy ending. LOL. Maybe I'm just making excuses. WTF. But seriously, it's like naumay na ako sa story na sinusulat ko. I was thinking that maybe I should start writing a different story and leave the Yuan's story until the time comes I've decided to let him have his happy ending. Anyway, I have posted his story on Wattpad. I hope readers would find time to read it or give it a chance. Maybe, just maybe, I'll be interested again to finish that story.


But then, there are times that I want to be just a reader fan. And sometimes, there's this inner voice inside me that tells me not to write anymore. But don't get me wrong, I've always wanted to be a writer, but now that I have achieved the goal of having my novel being published and seeing them in bookstores, there's a part of me that was satisfied already. That, OKAY, I have done that already, and I'm happy. What to do now? Do you get what I mean? I just find it so frustrating sometimes.


And the question right now is will I ever get back to writing again? I really hope so...


P/S I'm currently and majorly obsessed with ONE OK ROCK. It is them, that's keeping me busy aside from this Korean variety show The Superman Returns or TROS, which I will talk about in a separate post.