Happy 2018!

Happy New Year y'all!

Ang dami kong planong i-blog for 2017 kaso hindi ko nagagawa. Dami ko sanang iku-kuwento kaso wala din naman akong time. And ever since magkaroon ng Instagram, hindi ko na nahaharap yung blogging. Not sure if I can be as active on here as the past years.

Anyway, ayokong gumawa ng mga pangako dahil sigurado akong hindi ko naman matutupad. Puwedeng wish na lang muna? Okay.

My wish for this year is to finish the manuscript I am working on since January of 2017. Iyon na `yung MS na pinakamatagal kong natapos. And actually, hindi ko pa rin talaga tapos at malayo pa sa katotohanan. It's the first book in my planned trilogy. Biruin mong sa loob ng isang taon, kahit isa ay wala akong natapos na manuscript? Ugh. It's also my fault din naman dahil sadyang tamad ako. Natatamad ako kasi akong magsulat dahil sa maraming dahilan at ayoko naman ikuwento dito kasi baka may mapadpad at masabihan akong pa-diva. LOL.

Tbh, the only reason why I want to keep on writing is that of my readers. They may not be a lot, but their appreciation for my works keeps me going. So yeah, if there's something I am thankful for 2017 (when it comes to my writing), it would be my readers, especially the readers I have on Wattpad.

ENIWEI, I will try my best to write that South Korea travel and then my experience at the Jaejoong Fan Meet last November 30th. Sana sipagin ako. HAHA!


That's all for now, ~ may you all have a blessed and wonderful 2018!

Happy Birthday, Yan!

Dear Yan,

Happy birthday! Be content with what you have and be patient. All the good things will come to you if you believe.


Love always,

PS: I can't believe I'm effing 31! 31! I don't feel 31 tho. I still think like a 21 year old girl. LOL.

Random Blahs

Hi, y'all!

Well, this will be my first post for the month of May! Gaaah! Life's been fast paced don't yah think? We're almost halfway through the year 2017 and yet I'm still stuck with this boring office life. You know what? If I only have a choice, I would've left this job a long time ago. But as of now, I don't have any other options aside from pursuing my dreams of becoming a full-time writer. BUT! Right now, I think it's not the time yet to settle my life for that. Well, unless I get married and the husband agreed and approved upon of me staying at home and doing something I like while I take care of him. LOL! It is the romantic life I always daydreamed about.

But real life sucks and I have to face it. I do not have that husband who loves me so fucking much he can't live without me in his life and understands my passion for writing. I have to earn a fucking living to provide for myself. But hey, I'm not saying I only want a husband so there is someone to support me financially. I still want to work tho becos, how could I use all those lovely lipsticks and makeup I bought if I don't go to work, right? It's the only struggle I think about being a housewife. I don't think I can ever touch makeup if I'm mostly at home and will just probably use it if I go outside to make some errands or something. It's not the same as putting on the makeup or lipstick every day for work. Unless I'd put on some makeup while I do the household chores, take care of the kids and writing a novel. Haha! I can't imagine that... is there a woman who does that? Like for real? I don't know anyone who does that.

But I don't really know. The only reason for me to decide to be a stay-at-home-wife (housewife) is if the husband can provide for the family enough that it doesn't require for me getting a job also. But then, being a writer pays too. It just isn't enough unless I become popular and a best-selling one.

So what to do? I think about these things a lot as if I have a boyfriend to marry. LOL! Well, it ain't bad thinking about my future, right?

Dear Future Husband,

I'd left the decision on you. What do you think is the best for both of us and to our future family? Lels.

Maybe I...

I know I am not in love with him. Well, maybe I like him too much because if I don’t, then I’d not wait for him to text me or message me. Or get excited whenever he message me.

I don’t know why but I miss having conversations with him. He’s not even the type of man I wanted to end up with. But he makes me smile with all the silly and cute gestures he did to me.  And I’m fucking sad whenever he ignores me when I know he’s on line. Like I always need his attention.

I wish I know how to ignore him like he ignores me NOW. Maybe he doesn't really mean what he told me before. And I can fucking feel it.

I don’t want to assume things between us because at some point, I know we ain’t gonna see each other. We’re so miles apart.

I want to forget all these silly feelings he made me feel because I don’t want to get hurt in the end. And I always get hurt in the end with men I start to like.

Damn it.

Nganga as always

Medyo ganito yata ang itsura ko kahapon habang naglalakad sa kahabaan ng Araneta Center. Couples are everywhere. And I was planning to eat out last night, pero ang daming tao sa mga restaurant. Also, I don't wanna look like a loser kaya umuwi na lang ako ng maaga.

Every fucking Valentine's day, nalulungkot ako. Parang sinasampal ako ng realidad na, "I'm alone and lonely". I never got to have a date on Valentine's day everrrrr. I've never received flowers everrrr. Tho, nung 21 years old ako, someone gave me a gift. Dalawa yun, actually. Pero kasi naman, kapag di mo type yung nagbigay, hindi mo masyadong ma-appreciate. Okay, oo na. Napakasama ko na. Kaya siguro naisumpa akong maging single, eh. LOL.

Pero dati wala naman talaga akong paki sa Valentine's. It's just like an any normal day. Pero kapag tumatanda ka na at mag-isa, walang jowa o wala man lang constant date, eh, do'n mo mapi-feel yung sadness. For two fucking straight years, naiyak ako. Ayoko na ngang isipin. Mas nasasaktan ako kapag umaasa tapos in the end, NGANGA.

At oo napapaisip talaga ako minsan, PANGIT ba ako? Di ba ako kanasa-nasa? Hahaha. Pero parang alam ko na ang sagot. Nobody has ever courted me. At wala rin akong alam na may crush sa akin. `Yung seryosong crush, ha. Lels. Yung nagbigay sa akin ng gift noon? Ewan ko. Kailan kaya `yung time na `yung gusto ko, eh, magugustuhan rin ako?

Nganga as always.

Minsan Napapaisip Ako

Hey there! Yessss it's been a while. As usual, tinamad na naman akong mag-post. Wala akong year-ender blog. 2016 was the year na ang tamad-tamad kong mag-blog. Ewan ko ba. Since magkaroon ng Instagram, medyo nawalan na ako ng gana mag-blog. Haha! Eh kasi naman parang doon ko na rin ginagawa yung mga gusto kong i-blog. Kahit nga tumblr account ko di ko na nabubuksan.

Anyway, since 2017 na kelangang magkaroon ng laman ang blog na ito. Marami naman akong gustong ikuwento kaya lang parang masyadong personal kasi para i-share ko pa dito.

Love Times Two (approved)

Hey there~

I'm so freakinggggggggg happppppppy! Finally, after 1 minor revision, and after 2 months, approved na ang story ni Radley and Olivia! Yass!

Alam n'yo bang March 2016 ko pa natapos sulatin ang istoryang `yan at April 2016 ko ipinasa? Four months after lang saka nagkaroon ng result. I revised it and submitted it back to my editor after a few days and sa paghihintay ko nang matagal, eh, wala pa ring result. Nung mag-follow-up ako 2 weeks ago, aba! ang sabi, hindi raw naibigay sa kanya ang revised manuscript ko. Talagang mapapa-WTF ka na lang.

Anyway, sinend ko ulit at after a few days ay may result na. Mabuti naman `no. Ewan ko lang sa PHR kung bakit sobrang tagal nilang magbigay ng feedback sa mga manuscripts lately. As in `yung mapapaisip ka. Kasi hindi naman dating ganyan.

I'm thinking na dapat may sistema sila when it comes to receiving and giving the manuscripts for evaluation to the editorial staff. Kasi sa totoo lang, nakakapraning maghintay. At nakakaawa din iyong ibang writers na ito ang kanilang bread and butter. Mabuti na lang meron akong regular job at hindi lang itong pagsusulat ang pinagkakakitaan ko. Kung hindi, nganga talaga ako.

Alam mo`yun? Kung puwede lang talaga mag-suggest sa publisher namin, eh. Kaya lang I don't have the "K" and the power to make reklamo and make suggestion. So, yeah. Ganyan talaga.

The best thing about this, is, I finally got an approved manuscript! 2014 pa kaya mula nang huli akong makapagpa-approve ng manuscript since hindi naman ako madalas magpasa ng manuscript. And by the way, same date din, October 25, nung ma-approved ang story ni Rad and Via~ just like Curtis and Katrina's.

Now, the question is, kailan kaya ito mare-release? I'm not really sure. Maybe I have to wait for more than a year? Kasi napapansin ko lately, matagal na rin silang mag-published/released ng novel. I have a friend na, almost 2 years na `yung novel niya since ma-approved and yet hindi pa ito nare-release until now. Hmm, what seems to be the problem, `no? Curious din ako.

Sana, you'd buy a copy of my book "LOVE TIMES TWO" when it's out in the market. :)

Rant: Nakaka-leche Lang!

Bakit kaya may mga taong user friendly, `no? Kapag may pakinabang pa sa'yo, ang bait-bait niya. Pero kapag hindi ka niya kailangan, wala na. Para ka ng stranger sa kanya.

Hindi naman ako mayaman. Sapat lang ang kinikita ko. Ni hindi ko nga masasabing makakabuhay ako ng pamilya, pero ito namang dating kaibigan ko... okay, I would consider her now a former friend. Anyway, going back sa kuwento, iyon nga, so hindi nga malaki ang sahod ko, pero itong dating office mate/ friend ay bigla na lang naglahong parang bula after niyang mag-resign dito sa office. Iyong utang niya sa akin, di pa niya binabayaran. Three years na `yon! Imagine?! Da fuq di ba? As if hindi ko kailangan ng pera. Tapos iyong inutang pa niya dito sa office na ginamit ang name ko, di man lang mahulugan sa akin. Ako tuloy ang nagdurusa sa pagbabayad. As if ako naman ang nakinabang sa pera na iyon. Kaya nakakangitngit talaga. Pero kahit kasi magalit ako, wala naman akong magawa. Kahit awayin ko, deadma si ateng. As if wala siyang atraso sa akin. Jusko. Gusto ko na ngang mura-murahin, kaso ako lang naman ang magkakasala sa Panginoon. As much as possible, ayoko talagang nagagalit sa kapwa ko. Ayokong magtanim din ng galit sa kapwa. I appreciate din naman lahat ng kabutihan niya sa akin, but I feel so abused and used. Da fuq talaga. The problem is, masyado akong naging mabait, eh. Haaay.

Mukha ba akong di namomroblema sa pera o sa buhay?! Kakaloka. Por que, single ako, hindi na ba ako nangangailangan? Kaasar, eh. Tapos ngayon, hindi man lang nagpaparamdam. Nakaka-leche lang. Sa lahat ng taong sinayang ko sa lecheng opisinang ito. Oo, isa pang nakaka-leche 'tong opisina namin, wala man lang akong napala. 

Buti na lang, lipsticks make me happy. Haha. Anon'g koneksyon ng lipstick sa rant ko? Wala lang. Mema. Lels. Basta happy ako kapag may nape-purchase akong bagong lippie/s. It's the only thing that can make me happy as of now. Walang ka-date, eh. Walang boyfriend. Eh, di mag-lipstick na lang. Nakakaganda pa ng napaka-plain kong pagmumukha. 

So, iyon lang ang rant ko for now. Pero I still pray pa rin na bayaran ako ng may utang sa akin. Hindi rin biro ang lahat ng pera kong nasa kanya, `no. Binigyan niya pa ako ng sakit ng ulo.

About Me.

Nothing much to tell here. Just wanna post this about.me keme I made up from that said website. Hihi. I think it's cute.

And I love the color. ♥

Gaya-gaya Post XD

Found this on my Facebook timeline and I really want to do this since I'm gaya-gaya. XD If you want to know some things about me, here it goes.

Four names I go by

1. Arianne

2. Leng

3. Yaney

4. Yan

Four things I hate

1. frogs / snakes

2. liars

3. conceited

4. di nagbabayad ng utang. LOL

Four places I have worked

1. home- when I write romance stories

2. Lending company

3. Armscor -- OJT

4. Noritake -- OJT

Four things I love to watch

1. Game of Thrones

2. Sherlock

3. Any Arashi variety shows

4. Any Tom Hiddleston or Leo DiCaprio film

Four places I have been

1. Baguio

2. Hundred Islands in Alaminos, Pangasinan

3. Bohol

4. Boracay

Four things I love to eat

1. Fries

2. chocolates

3. Fried chicken

4. Pasta

Four people I think will respond

1. text

2. messenger

3. LINE

4. Instagram DM

Four favorite drinks (not water)

1. melon shake, actually anything melon

2. coffee frappe

3. milk tea

4. iced tea

Four things I am looking forward to:

1. finishing my current writing-in-progress before April

2. going to Sagada on April

3. Fun run on March 6th

4. getting a boyfriend? HAHAHAHA

Hell-O 2016!

As usual, this is a late post again. What do you expect? I'm lazy asf. LOL. whatever. Anyway, since it has been a habit of mine to post a "Hello January" entry every new year, I feel obligated to make something for this year also. But I actually do not know what to say in here. I'm running out of topics or issues to discuss.

Okay, let me start with... what happened to me in 2015?

I can pretty much say that the good things that had happened to me the past year were:

1) I got two published books for 2015. My third novel in PHR was released January 14 last year and the fourth one was released in July. For me, that's really something. I only get a book release once in a year. So having two novels published in a year is an achievement for me. LOL!

2) Losing weight is one of the biggest struggles for me. And last year, I was able to enroll myself on the gym, particularly trying boxing and I can say that I did lose some weight. Not much though. But! If you see how I look years ago, then you would say that I indeed succeed in shedding some weight. That's another MILESTONE for me! The only problem now is I gained some KILOS (shucks!) when I took a break from the gym for two months! two-freaking-months! what the hell?! Anyway, yeah. So I have to be back to the gym NOW.

3) For someone who doesn't know me personally and I rarely discuss this topic with my friends, I actually love it when we have bible studies in our house. I crave for enlightenment. I crave for God's words and I hope to learn more about the bible, about Him, our Lord Jesus Christ. I wish to understand the bible more. I'm really happy when we have bible study in our house every week.

4) If you guys follow my blog, you probably read about my struggle with acne. That had been the worst moment of life. But last year, my cousin helped me in achieving an acne-free skin. Would love to share my secret if you also have acne problems like me in the past years. I now have clear skin and almost everyone is so envious of how smooth and clear my face is. And because I now have a clear skin, I get to wear makeup once again! YAY! I feel confidently beautiful with a heart! :)

5) Sometime in 2012, I found out that I have endometrioma and to cure the cyst in both my ovaries, my menstruation would have to stop so I was advised to take DMPA shots. But since the cyst in my right ovary was not responding to the DMPA, my OB decided that she have to remove the cyst so we can save my ovaries and so I could have the chance to bear a child when I decided in having one. In 2013, I had partial oophorectomy , a surgery in which my doctor and her team removed a cyst in my right ovary. Thank god, I still have a part of my right ovary! The left ovary is still intact. Though, the cysts were removed, I still have to go with the DMPA shots which would stop my menstruation cycle. For three years, I haven't been having my period. I think that is one of the reasons why I have bad acne problems for years. LOL. Anyway, last year, my OB advised me to shift from DMPA shots to taking birth control pills. She said I have to strive in finding a boyfriend with whom I can make a baby with. knowing that I am already in my late twenties, my doctor wants me to get pregnant as soon as possible. She tells me that every time we meet. As if that's easy. :/ I don't know. So after taking the pills, I finally have periods again. And I believe that also helps in clearing up my skin. After taking the pills for months, the acne breakouts were gone. I just hope my boobs will get bigger. They say birth control pills make your boobs bigger.

6) I became obsessed with ONE OK ROCK. I never thought I could fangirl another group aside from Arashi and TVXQ. Having two fandoms is a hard task, much more when you have another group to fangirl over. But no regrets. I love OOR and I'm crazy over Takahiro Moriuchi so that's fine. And I'm going to see them perform live next week! YASSS!

7) I haven't finished any novel last year. I lost my drive and I have not gained it back yet. Hopefully, this month I will be able to start a new novel. Wish me luck!

RESOLUTIONS & PLANS FOR 2016...?

Nothing much really. I'm not the type who do this kind of things because I believe I can never fulfill it. LOL whatever. I just hope that I can finish a novel this year. One novel for this year is enough. And I really have to be back to the gym because I want to be as hot as fuck as Candice Swanepoel! I WISH!

This entry is getting long~oops sorry! till next time! :D

Happy New Year!

"Aka-chan" ♥

Hey, guys!! As usual, nawala na naman ako sa blogsphere. Lels. It's November already!!!

Anyway, there's nothing much to say naman. Aside from I got myself a new laptop! Yay for me! And huhu for my savings. Actually, there was not in my plan to purchase a laptop last Friday. Biglaang shopping lang `yun. I was just going to canvass a laptop since humingi ako ng opinion sa dalawang kaibigan ko. Yes, I really wanted to have a laptop of my own. The one I was using was my sister's at medyo nakakaasar na kasing gamitin `yun. Not sure if I've talked about it here before, pero isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako tinatamad magsulat, eh, dahil sa laptop ng ate ko. Nakakainis kasing gamitin. So going back to the laptop I bought last Friday, nagtitingin-tingin lang ako sa SM Cyberzone sa Cubao ng laptop no'n hanggang sa ma-entice ako sa Acer laptop na sinasabi ni ateng sales lady don sa Asianic. Sale sila nung araw na `yun. And I had my credit card with me that day. Before ako, mag-purchase,  I texted my mudra and ate to get their opinion. Sabi ni ate, kung kaya ko raw bayaran, edi go ako. Sabi naman ni mudra, para daw sipagin ako magsulat, I should go for it. So `ayun nga, hindi na ako masyadong nag-dalawang-isip. Affordable naman `yung lappy. I just have to sacrifice my budget for gym-ing. LOL! `Wag naman. Magagawa ko `yan ng paraan. Hehe.

So since I already got a new laptop, I wish and hope na mas ganahan na ako ngayong magsulat ng nobela. Imagine na kahit isang manuscript ay wala akong natapos ngayong taon na 'to? At matatapos na ang 2015! tsk tsk! I really need to write more novels and have more approved novels for next year! Hashtag ambisyosa. Oo. Kelangan talaga `yan. I have to earn and save money so I could go to Japan and to finally realize my dream of watching Arashi's concert. I'm not sure when that's going to happen, though. For now, all I have to do is work hard and save up! Ganbarre!

Anyway, here's my new laptop, which I would fondly be calling, "Aka-chan". Aka is a Japanese word for the color "Red". And it's obvious why I named my Acer Aspire ES14, "Aka-chan". LOL. So yeah, dear Aka-chan, let's make more novels and more money! I'm counting on you! Btw, I really had a hard time looking for a Purple laptop~ I've always wanted to have one since it's my favorite color in the world! But I guess for now, we are not meant to be. I just have to settle myself with a red one. Not bad naman, right? More than the black laptop with the same model, I like this one better.

Was testing this baby out that night, I was watching One Ok Rock's 'Living Dolls" live performance on Youtube.

It's cute isn't it? *smiles*

PS : Hindi pa rin ako binabayaran nung may utang sa akin. Sabi niya bago siya manganak. Eh ang lapit na niya manganak, nganga pa rin! Jusmio! Anyway, sana bayaran na ako `no! Pang ipon din sa Japan dreams ko `yun!

That's all!

PSS Sabi ko wala akong masyadong sasabihin pero ang haba na ng entry na `to! LOL!

Catching Up On Me (As If You're Interested.)

Hi guys!

Andami kong naiisip na ikuwento dito kaso kapag iba-blog ko na siya. Nawawala naman sa isip ko kung ano na yung dapat na isusulat ko dito. Anyway, I just want to update this blog. Wala lang. Nakaka-miss din naman kasi. Year 2013, ang sipag-sipag kong mag-blog. Biruin mong naka-93 posts ako that year? Iyon na na ang pinakamaraming entries ko dito sa ilang taon ko sa blogspot. Kahit wala naman masyadong relevance at walang sense, eh ang sipag kong mag-post. So, ano nga ba ang sasabihin ko? Okay lang naman siguro na mag-update ako rito ng kung ano-ano lang. Alam ko naman konti lang napapadpad dito. Lels.

So okay...let' start.

In the past months, I haven't written anything on the manuscript I was supposed to finish since the start of this year  (and I assume that people who follow this blog already knew about this because I've been saying this for a couple of times). I don't know, parang nawala talaga ako nang gana magsulat. I'd like to think na effect ito ng pagkahibang ko sa ONE OK ROCK lalo na kay Takahiro Moriuchi. LOL. I'm busy fangirling over them that I don't have time for something else. Iba talaga ang mag-fangirl, eh. Marubdob. Haha. Tanda ko noong nagsisimula pa lang ako sa Arashi, as in tinamad din ako magsulat no'n. Well, aside from the other issues I had before. At gano'n din no'ng 2011 when I was starting fangirling over Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK). Masyado akong busy sa fandom at puro sila ang inaatupag ko. Hehe. That's really not nice for my "writing" career, as if I have any. Chos. I have a few readers siguro. Mga less than ten. But I don't think they really follow me, or should I say follow my works. I'm not looking for or wanting fame or anything like that. I write because I wanted to. For self satisfaction, I guess? Since I was in my teens, I've always loved reading romance novels and I wanted to write one, someday. A few years later, I achieved that, it was a dream come true. At this point, I already have four published novels.

Ano pa ba ang gusto kong i-achieve bukod sa maging jowa si Taka? LOL. 

Pero ano nga ba ang punto ko rito? Hmm.. siguro, nawala na rin `yung drive ko magsulat since na-achieve ko na `yung pangarap na makapagsulat ng libro. Ang dami kong mga plano no'ng hindi pa ako nakakapag-publish ng libro. Gusto ko nang ganito, ganyan. Pero kapag inisiip ko ngayon, parang hindi ko siya kayang gawin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I've always had self-doubt in my capabilities. Aside from that, I don't have enough time to write. I have a regular day job, 8am-5pm and kahit na i-try ko magsulat kapag nakauwi na ako sa bahay hindi ko na talaga keri. As in sabog na ang utak ko no'n at wala na akong maisip. At ngayon naman, I go to the gym every after work. Mas late na ako nakakauwi ng bahay, so for sure, wala na rin akong time magsulat pa on weekdays. Even on weekends, kasi I'm super busy. Tapos iyon nga, like I always said, nawawalan na talaga ako ng gana. Kahit nga magbasa ng libro kinatatamaran ko na rin. Dati ang sipag-sipag kong magbasa ng libro. Ngayon, wala. Nganga! If there's one thing I'd like to get back to, it's my passion for reading books. Nakaka-miss din naman talaga. I have lots of books on my to-read list and ang daming pending. Hindi lang yung mismong libro, pati ebooks ang daming kailangan ko nang basahin. I wish I could find time to read again. Hopefully. And yeah, at the back of mind, I still want to get back to writing. I don't think I've said it here before, I'm a contract writer of PHR since last year and siyempre nakakahiya rin naman na for this year, wala man lang akong kahit isang naipasang manuscript sa kanila. Kahit walang nag-aabang ng libro ko, masarap pa rin naman sa pakiramdam iyong may published kang libro. I guess, lahat naman ng writer o nangangarap maging published writer ay ganoon ang feeling. Well, hopefully, I could get my groove back. Makapagsimula ng isang bagong kuwento. Kahit hindi na muna `yung kay Yuan at Cassie. I'm not sure when it will happen, maybe next year? I wissshhhh!

Anyhoo...

Kung meron mang magandang nangyari sa akin so far, this year, it's the fact that I'm losing weight. Yaaaay! Magbunyi! It has been a struggle for me for years. Pero ngayong taon ko lang na-achieve. Haha! Nakakatuwa lang. And I love that I'm seeing good results from my hard work. Sobrang nakakapagod magpapayat, but as they say, NO PAIN, NO GAIN. Super enjoy ko talaga ang workout ko na boxing. It's the kind of workout that I enjoyed from the rest I've tried before like aerobics, zumba etc. Iba `yung feeling ng boxing for me! Aside from losing weight, I can feel that I'm getting stronger. So kapag may nakaaway ako, puwedeng-puwede ko nang jombagin at siguradong tulog! Chos lang! Hindi naman ako palaaway na tao.

And here's a proof that I at least shed a few pounds.

Left pic : 2013; Right pic is very recent. Taken from last week, Oct. 2015

                   
 You see that?! You see that?!! Damn! I look good! Lels. I'm gonna post a whole body picture next time and the difference between my former majubis body versus the body I have now. I still have a long waaaay to go cause right now, I cannot say that I've already achieved the body I've always wanted. Candice Swanepoel ang peg ko! Hashtag ambisyosa. Wahahaha! Pero malay naman natin, di ba? By January 2016 super sexy na ako! hashtag ambisyosa to the nth power.

'Till next chika!! :)

Post Birthday Celebration with College friends.

Bihira kaming makumpleto ng mga kaibigan ko. Well, kulang pa rin kami ng isa dahil may sore eyes yung isang friend namin kaya hindi nakasama. Okay lang `yan. At least nairaos namin yung post birthday celebration ko. Hihi.

We had a karaoke party in Music Match at sa totoo lang, nakakadismaya ang food nila. Hindi ako natuwa. Tho, okay-okay yung MM platter nila. At nakakainis na hindi updated ang songs nila. Kainis lang. Yung mga gusto kong kantahin, wala.

Wala na bang ibang malapit na videoke / karaoke place somewhere in Cubao or Ortigas?

29. OMG.

Off to watch Attack on Titan yesterday.
OOTD : Shirt from Cosmic Concept Manila, Shorts from Bench,
Shoes from Vans and ONE OK ROCK 35xxxv tour bag.

Holy cow! I'm effin' 29 already! wtf. I'm almost an ahjumma = middle age woman. LOL.

I'm 29 and yet I feel like 19.

I thank all the people who remembered to greet me last Saturday. And I don't want to sound melodramatic because I've already done that on my IG post. And I've also said my wishes and that's to have a stronger relationship with God--- it's still the most important thing for me. God knows how much I wanted that to happen.

I'm not wishing for a life partner or a boyfriend or anyone to date. If God is willing to give me a man in my life, then I'd be happy. If it's not in His plans, I'm also very thankful to Him. That means our Lord have a better plan for me and He knows best. And I trust Him with everything.


But yeah, I also want to have a stable career and have a better future. And I hope to find what my purpose in life is.

Thank you everyone! I love you all!

Hello August 2015!

It's the time of the year~ my birth month and so is MatsuJun's. I'm not sure if I'll get excited or what. This will be the last year I'm in my 20s. Shucks! I'm so old. wtf. Time really does fly so fast. I just hope good things will come when I reached my 29th year of existence. LOL.


But... It's already half of the year and I haven't finished a single manuscript. Like seriously, I'm too lazy to finish the MS I was writing a few months back. I think I have stopped writing for more than two months now. And I'm not sure if I'll ever get my groove back again. This has happened to me for years, but this will be the first time that a manuscript took me more than five months to finish it... but I haven't even finished Yuan and Cassie's story which I have started writing since December of last year. I got fed up with the story and I don't know. I think if you write something you really don't believe in, it's really hard for the writer to have the characters a happy ending. LOL. Maybe I'm just making excuses. WTF. But seriously, it's like naumay na ako sa story na sinusulat ko. I was thinking that maybe I should start writing a different story and leave the Yuan's story until the time comes I've decided to let him have his happy ending. Anyway, I have posted his story on Wattpad. I hope readers would find time to read it or give it a chance. Maybe, just maybe, I'll be interested again to finish that story.


But then, there are times that I want to be just a reader fan. And sometimes, there's this inner voice inside me that tells me not to write anymore. But don't get me wrong, I've always wanted to be a writer, but now that I have achieved the goal of having my novel being published and seeing them in bookstores, there's a part of me that was satisfied already. That, OKAY, I have done that already, and I'm happy. What to do now? Do you get what I mean? I just find it so frustrating sometimes.


And the question right now is will I ever get back to writing again? I really hope so...


P/S I'm currently and majorly obsessed with ONE OK ROCK. It is them, that's keeping me busy aside from this Korean variety show The Superman Returns or TROS, which I will talk about in a separate post.

4th PHR Novel : A Stolen Kiss And A Love Charade

A Stolen Kiss And A Love Charade
by Yaney Matsumoto

Date Approved : October 2014
Date Released : July 15, 2015

“Hindi mo kailangang magbago para sa sa `kin, Curtis. Na-realize ko na hindi ko naman kailangan ng perfect boyfriend. Na walang standard, standard pagdating sa pag-ibig. Ang mas importante ay `yong sigurado akong mahal ako at mahal ko rin.”

Hindi inasahan ni Katrina na tutulungan siya ni Curtis—member ng famous rock band, ubod ng guwapo, talented, at sobrang sikat—upang itaboy ang isang makulit na manliligaw. Nagpanggap itong boyfriend niya, ngunit may hinihingi itong kapalit.
And then they were both involved in a kissing scandal. Ipinagkalat pa ni Curtis na girlfriend siya nito. Nagalit tuloy sa kanya ang legion of fans nito. And worst, they were calling her names! She was mad, of course, dahil wala naman iyong katotohanan. Ngunit nakiusap si Curtis na magpanggap siya bilang girlfriend nito. Maging ito pala ay may iniiwasang makulit na admirer.
Kaya pumayag na rin siya.
Oh, well, nagbabayad lang naman siya ng utang-na-loob. Iyon lang at wala nang ibang dahilan.
Ngunit bakit gano’n na lang ang epekto ng mga ngiti, titig, at pasimpleng halik sa kanya ni Curtis? Bakit parang kinikilig siya?
Posible kayang nahuhulog na ang loob niya sa lalaking mula pagkabata ay kinaiinisan na niya?

★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★

So after waiting for nine months! Yeah, freakin' nine months, my 4th PHR book has finally come out. I did not expect that it would be out in the market yesterday. I was really happy. Muntik ko nang makalimutan yung feeling nang may bagong release book.  And also, for the 3rd time in a row, maganda ang cover ng book ko. :) Buti hindi Kpop or Korean Actors ang nasa cover. Haha! And because I was excited to have my hands on my book, I immediately bought a copy yesterday. Napansin kong ang liit ng font sa book at talagang pinagkasya ang 30k+ word count sa 128 pages. Not sure if I'm going to be impressed or not. Oh, well, okay na rin. Magrereklamo pa ba ako? At ang napansin ko, sa teaser na nakasulat sa likod ng libro, may typo error! OMG! It's supposed to be perfect na di ba? Kasi libro na siya. But no. May error pa rin! And same with some of the words in the book. But in comparison to my previous release, the editing on this novel is much better. I honestly kinda liked it. Yep. I read the book version already! Ganoon ako kaatat mabasa yung sarili kong libro. Ininspeksyon ko kung ano ang mga nabago o pinalitan o mga typo errors.

By the way, this novel is the spin-off my first PHR novel, Tatta Hitotsu No Koi (My One And Only Love). So if you have read that, you're already familiar with some of the characters in this novel.

TRIVIA

Curtis Feliciano : The guitarist of the rock band Vampyres. He's the resident playboy of their group. At sa lahat ng heroes na isinulat ko, siya na yata ang pinakamakulit. At siya ang worst enemy ni Katrina mula pa noong mga bata sila. He's the youngest son of Senator Javier Feliciano. Ang sabi ko noon habang isinusulat ko pa lang ang istorya na 'to, si Jared Leto ang peg ni Curtis. Well, in terms sa long hair, charisma at pagkapogi. 

Katrina Leanna Vergara : I got her name from my FB & Twitter friend. Wala lang. Nagagandahan kasi ako sa pangalan niyang Katrina Leana. Hniram ko. Anyway, Kat is an owner of a salon and day spa. And she was a former commercial model and "it" girl of the Philippines. Ang visual peg ko kay Katrina ay si Kylie Padilla. Like I said on my old post, I really find Kylie beautiful. At no'ng isinusulat ko ang nobelang ito ay si Kylie ang naiisip ko kay Katrina. :) At oo nga pala, she hated Curtis Feliciano since time immemorial. XD

Supporting characters:

Jacqueline : Curtis's "crazy" ex-girlfriend. My friend requested na siya na lang daw ang kontrabida/ka-love triangle ng mga bida. So ayan, siya ang extra sa nobelang ito. XD

Radley : the drummer of Vampyres and Curtis's friend.

Drew : the bassist of Vampyres and Curtis's friend.

Shinji and Erika : Ang mga bida sa nobelang Tatta Hitotsu No Koi. Shinji is the vocalist of Vampyres at fiancee naman nito si Erika.

Miss Loraine : Manager ng Vampyres

Cha-Cha : Ang misteryosang personal assistant ni Drew.

Oh... If you've been reading my books, may ginawa akong cross over sa story na 'to. Chef Jaeden Lagdameo and his bar and restaurant was mentioned in this novel. Hihi.

I hope you could grab a copy of this book!  And any reactions upon reading the novel will be very much appreciated. Kahit violent reaction pa `yan, keri lang. But I hope you'll get to enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you! ♥