Maybe I...

I know I am not in love with him. Well, maybe I like him too much because if I don’t, then I’d not wait for him to text me or message me. Or get excited whenever he message me.

I don’t know why but I miss having conversations with him. He’s not even the type of man I wanted to end up with. But he makes me smile with all the silly and cute gestures he did to me.  And I’m fucking sad whenever he ignores me when I know he’s on line. Like I always need his attention.

I wish I know how to ignore him like he ignores me NOW. Maybe he doesn't really mean what he told me before. And I can fucking feel it.

I don’t want to assume things between us because at some point, I know we ain’t gonna see each other. We’re so miles apart.

I want to forget all these silly feelings he made me feel because I don’t want to get hurt in the end. And I always get hurt in the end with men I start to like.

Damn it.