Random Blahs

Hi, y'all!

Well, this will be my first post for the month of May! Gaaah! Life's been fast paced don't yah think? We're almost halfway through the year 2017 and yet I'm still stuck with this boring office life. You know what? If I only have a choice, I would've left this job a long time ago. But as of now, I don't have any other options aside from pursuing my dreams of becoming a full-time writer. BUT! Right now, I think it's not the time yet to settle my life for that. Well, unless I get married and the husband agreed and approved upon of me staying at home and doing something I like while I take care of him. LOL! It is the romantic life I always daydreamed about.

But real life sucks and I have to face it. I do not have that husband who loves me so fucking much he can't live without me in his life and understands my passion for writing. I have to earn a fucking living to provide for myself. But hey, I'm not saying I only want a husband so there is someone to support me financially. I still want to work tho becos, how could I use all those lovely lipsticks and makeup I bought if I don't go to work, right? It's the only struggle I think about being a housewife. I don't think I can ever touch makeup if I'm mostly at home and will just probably use it if I go outside to make some errands or something. It's not the same as putting on the makeup or lipstick every day for work. Unless I'd put on some makeup while I do the household chores, take care of the kids and writing a novel. Haha! I can't imagine that... is there a woman who does that? Like for real? I don't know anyone who does that.

But I don't really know. The only reason for me to decide to be a stay-at-home-wife (housewife) is if the husband can provide for the family enough that it doesn't require for me getting a job also. But then, being a writer pays too. It just isn't enough unless I become popular and a best-selling one.

So what to do? I think about these things a lot as if I have a boyfriend to marry. LOL! Well, it ain't bad thinking about my future, right?

Dear Future Husband,

I'd left the decision on you. What do you think is the best for both of us and to our future family? Lels.