MJ's 30th birthday celebration~

I celebrated J's 30th birthday last Friday at Sumo Sam in Megamall together with my three friends. Been doing this for 3 years, so kahit wala akong pera at marami akong gastusin di ko maatim na hindi i-celebrate ang birthday ng tumi-trenta ko ng jowa. LOL. I want it to be something special, so by something special I bought an ice cream cake for him. hihihi. Sarap naman. Kaya lang nasayang yung kalahati kasi natunaw yung cake. Aww :(

Anyways, I enjoyed that day because I get to celebrate it with my co-fangirl friends. The sad thing is when I got home, na-corrupt yung memory card ng digicam ko when I was about to upload the pictures we've taken that day/night. Ugh! Sobrang badtreeep ako. This pic is from Jackie.

Sayang lang walang Jun bash this year. Next year na lang raw.

Happy 30th Birthday MatsuJun!!

Dearest Jun-kun,

I promised to you last year that I will make a very heartwarming letter on your 30th birthday. I hope I could stand this. LOL. So okay, let me try this very cheesy and very “heartwarming” open letter to you. I would also try my best to write in the universal language—English. If only I could speak and write in Japanese, I would do so, but we are lost in translation, babe. I could only speak in simple Japanese phrases. But don’t worry, I will try to learn to speak in your language… fluently. I hope so. Someday.

So here it goes…

I am so thankful to your parents for bringing you into this world. I feel so blessed… so lucky to know you. It may not be in person, but I know someday we will get to meet. *tiwala lang* . You are an inspiration for me to try harder in life. That dreams are not impossible to reach. Dreams are attainable as long as you give your one hundred percent best to conquer it. You have become a motivation to me. Without knowing you, I wouldn’t have known my other ambitions in life. I mean, well, aside from becoming the “next big thing” in the world of romance writing or be a big shot businesswoman and a realtor, this may sound corny and all, but you have become a goal to me. And I would do everything to see you in person, to step on the same ground and breathe the same air as you do. I’m not sure when, but I know in this heart of mine it’ll happen.

If it’s not because of you, I wouldn’t have anything to do in my life. Sounds pathetic, huh? Well, I consider myself a boring person. If I had not come to know you, I wouldn’t have a life. I wouldn’t have been fangirling over you and your group Arashi. Well, you see, I don’t have that much social life. It’s not like it’s my thing, actually. I only go out with my friends if I wanted to go out but most of the time, I love it when I stay at home and stare at you on my pc. #Patheticmuch. wtf. I enjoy every show that you are in. I love watching you… seeing you. I love hearing you talk. Not much on hearing you sing *laughs*.

I wish you would get to know all these things. However, I’m just fooling myself, I know. This doesn’t sound rational and you may find I’m bordering crazy but I have never loved any man, ordinary or celebrity, as much as I loved you. And I even doubt myself If I am capable of loving a man aside from you. I am serious, you know. You are not just an idol to me. You are more than that. I see you as a real person, a person who has a kind heart, a person who is hardworking, passionate, committed, a person made up of awesomeness and ah-mazeballs… the kind of man I would be so proud to tell the world, “This is my man, eat your hearts out bitches!”.  And it’s not because of the good things I see in you why I love and adore you so much, I’ve said this last year and I’m going to say this again, I love everything about you!!! Pimple-marks and all.

I always believe that you are a great friend. And how I wish I had a guy friend like you. I could learn a lot of things from you. You know, I often imagine we’re traveling around the world and doing foolish things together. I certainly think that it’s awesome to be your friend but I prefer being your lover and do wonderful and crazy and nasty stuffs with you.

My dearest MatsuJun, I thank you for gracing this world. I thank you for making me happy… for the reason of my smiles. I thank you for being my motivation. You are one of the reasons why I want to take this journey they call LIFE. You made my life worth living for. #cheesy. I mean, to be honest, I always ask myself, what’s my reason for living? And then your name pops into my head. Wtf.

Happy Birthday, babe. This is the start of your new journey. A new decade for you. I know you have a bright future ahead of you, especially in your career. You are now in your 30s and I wish you’d get to enjoy it as much as you enjoyed your 20s. You’ve become older, wiser, and more mature. But I know there’s still a “kid” in your heart that would never go away. Yes, I know it. We’re close, right? Lol. I wish for more blessings to come your way because you totally deserve it.

… And I wish… someday…

We could find each other and live together with our happily ever after. XD

I promise to love and support you forever. I’m not going to stop being your fan. Even when the time comes you choose to get married to a bitch. But I hope not. I wish for greater things in your life. Including the girl who’ll eventually become your lifetime partner. I wish it’s me. But it’s like I’m asking for the moon. But I’m never going to give up my dreams of us being together in the end. Wtf. I know it’s crazy but I ain’t gonna stop. I love you, my life, my world, my everything, my number one, my Matsumoto Jun.

Thank you so much God for giving us MATSUMOTO JUN.

Love Always,

PS: Did I succeed in making this letter a heartwarming one? I did not? Yeah, I know.

Micky loves ♥

Micky Yoochun
Heto yung peg ni Micky
of Micky in Once And For Always.
hihi! ♥

Have you ever had the feeling of punching yourself  in the face because you felt so stupid, so useless, so………?

That’s what I felt the past few days. I should have been taking advantage of the bad weather and the long vacation but I hadn’t. And it’s annoying because I could have written a chapter or two of my supposed spin-off of Jaeden & Louise ‘s (Once And For Always) story. Yes, a spin-off. My plan is to write Micky’s own story since there are a few people (people who got to read my 2^nd  PHR novel) who got intrigued about him. And I think it’s nice that I write a story for him. My sister even suggested a plot for him J.

Since I’m the queen of procrastination and I’ve been living in the Lazy-dom for the past centuries, I hadn’t faced the MS word in this whole “Habagat” and “Maring” days. WTF.  I could have even used that opportunity to read the books on my bucket list but the lethargy struck me once again. Like it always has. 

I’m quite excited to write Micky’s story. I actually found a perfect title for it even. I also have an OST. Ah-maze balls, right? I wish I could start writing this whole Micky thing but I couldn’t seem to put it into writings … words. I couldn’t gather my thoughts properly. You know I have this idea and yet… ugh! So vexing!

Anyways, I wish before this month ends, I have written a few chapters at least. I need to do this for the sake of my sanity. WTF. Motivation...muses… inspirations… I need you so bad!

And while we’re praying for my muses to come to me, let’s listen to my so-called Micky’s story’s OST.

I totally love this song. Among all the JYJ songs I've heard, this one is my favorite. 

Me at 27

Hi guys!

I promised to make a Happy Birthday entry for myself on the day itself but I didn't have time. And I got lazy to write anything. Duh?! What else is new?

Anyways, my birthday’s on the 15th but I got to celebrate it for 4 days. LOL. Well, last Wednesday (the 14th), I went to SM Aura and had my birthday dinner there in a Japanese restaurant together with my office mates after we did a little shopping. I got new shirts from UNIQLO— a gift from one of my favorite Ate’s in the world :).

On Thursday, I treated two of my friends to dinner and Tin-tin gave me a chocolate cake which she made herself. The taste is so heavenly (for the lack of word) my friend can now make baking as her business or a sideline. She has a future in it. No stir. She’s really good and she’s not a professional baker…. yet.

This is so yummy. Not really sweet. Just perfect for
my taste buds.

Last Saturday, the 17th, after going to the clinic to have my ultrasound, I bought something for my family to celebrate my birthday. Yesterday, together with my college friends we ate at City Buffet in Robinson’s Galleria to celebrate my birthday and my friend Diana’s late birthday celebration (it’s supposed to be last June but she’s got busy so she didn’t have time to celebrate it with Red and Emman whom she has the same birth month, so we decided to celebrate our birthdays together.). The food is similar to Yakimix. It was good but I didn’t eat that much. I’m afraid to gain weight again (I lost a couple of pounds already. yaay!) knowing that I have a wedding to attend next month. Ugh.

makalat talaga ang table namin. Ha-ha!

I got a really nice greeting card from Donna, a charm bracelet from Red (I don’t usually wear this kind of stuff but I really appreciate it) and a box of mini cupcakes from Emman. I enjoyed being with my friends as always even though the weather wasn’t pleasant yesterday. It was raining hard but thanks god we didn’t get stranded and I got home safe.

The mini cupcakes from Emman.
My upper lip was swollen after eating tempura. :(
The charming bracelet on my left wrist was given by Red.

One of my fave pics last night. Me & Donna.
I feel so pretty. I feel like Miranda Kerr. lol

Pardon my pose. I'm such a lame model. Lol.
My OOTD: Floral blouse from Lee, shorts from Lee,
 Flip flops from Ipanema, bag from Lacoste.

I am a shorty.
My face is devoid of any makeup except from a lip balm.
I don't wear makeups for the longest months because I'm using treatment
for my face. I used to have really bad acne.

And this is my feeling Miranda Kerr shots. LOL.
pagbigyan na, birthday ko naman.
#charot

I thank everyone who made my birthday special. ♥ And I thank God for giving me another year. I am now twenty-seven. Oh Gosh! I’m getting old and yet I still feel like a kid. I’m still immature in a lot of ways. I feel young at heart. I guess, this won’t ever go away, not yet. 

Aside from having future approved manuscripts all I want is a love life! LOL. I think I really need it right now. Like, right now. Can I have that now, dear God?  :p

Throwback Thursday : Devon Sawa

Devon Sawa
(teen years)

Ever remember Devon Sawa? Back in the 90s he was one of the most popular teen stars and heartthrobs in Hollywood. Pang top 3 siya (no 1. is Jonathan Taylor Thomas & at 2nd spot is Andrew Keegan).

During elementary days me and my bff were super addict sa mga teenstar sa America. Sa kanila ako deads na deads talaga. Super crush ko si Devon Sawa. I watched most of his films back in the day → namely, Casper, Now & Then, Little Giants, Robin of Locksley, Wild America, etc. I believe yung mga nag-aaral sa private school ang mas nakakakila sa mga teen stars no'n sa Hollywood. Well, I came from a public school pero nakilala ko siya dahil sa pinsan ko. haha! Sangkatutak ba naman ang BOP and BB magazines niya no'n.

I wonder if any one of you still remember him? :)

note: originally posted on FB. 

**Today is my birthday and I have a date tonight with 2 of my friends.  I'm so anticipating the chocolate cake my friend Tin Tin baked for me. It was her promise. hihi! I will try to post a happy birthday entry for myself if ever I get home early tonight. ;) laterssss!

Misspelled Name

It is A-R-I-A-N-N-E bishes!

I’m not really fond of my name but I get pissed whenever my name is spelled incorrectly. Feeling ko kasi hindi ako `yon.

I think I’m not the only one who gets annoyed if his or her name is misspelled. Ako talaga, sa totoo lang inis na inis kapag mali ang pag-spell sa pangalan ko. I feel like flipping the universe. Arte much. But that’s true. Ayoko talaga pag mali ang spelling ng name ko. Lalo na if you’re my friend tapos hindi mo alam ang tamang spelling ng pangalan ko. I'm very sensitive about this.

Kaya, if you are my friend or you know me personally, bear in mind that I’M GONNA HATE YOU FOREVER IF YOU FORGOT TO SPELL MY NAME CORRECTLY. Cheers!

The Jaejoong feels are coming back.

The Jackal is Coming

I want to watch this movie!!!

Recently, the Jaejoong feels are coming back. I don't know why. Maybe because of my novel Once And For Always? Haha! He was the peg of the hero Jaeden. For me Jaeden is Jaejoong. So that must be one of the reasons. Or maybe because the love that I invested in him is profound and I just can't throw it all away. Well, I love him. But not the MatsuJun levels. I still do.

And I'm stalking Jeje on twitter and guess what? He's still the best troll on twitter! LOL. And I wonder why he loves posting his naked selcas/selfie on twitter. So funny. I cannot stop laughing.

Surprise! Yes I am. :D

When I arrived home a while ago, I was surprised when my tita told me I got a package from the UK. I never expected that a friend whom I met online who's based in the UK would give me presents for my birthday. We've never met personally and yet I can say that there's a special kind of friendship between us. As if we're not separated by long miles and ten thousand seas #charot. As if she's here and I am there. We met on Facebook. We're both fangirls of Arashi and that's where our friendship started. I really really hope that we could finally meet someday.

These things are soooo lovely. According to my friend Dannicor,

she had a theme. A taste of England. Hehe! Pink's my second favorite color ♥. 

Soooo lovely. The content of this birthday card is ten times lovelier.

I wish and I hope that my friend Dannicor and I would meet someday and fulfill our

fangirl dreams--- and that is to see and meet our boys, our dear idols, Arashi. 

I feel so lucky and so blessed for gaining and having friends in the Arashi fandom. Remember, never underestimate the friendship that started on a fandom.

Rumor Has It...

I was freakingly and effinly mad this morning! Kung bakit naman kasi biglang sumulpot ang rumor na ‘to → “A super popular male idol to get married?” And because of that headline, every fangirls I know on twitter was curious and in a frenzy. Panira ng araw!

And if you say “Super Popular Male Idol”, the first idol group that comes to our minds is Arashi. In case you didn’t know, Arashi is dubbed as the national idols and the most popular group in Japan right now.

‘Till now, super worried pa rin ako. Ayaw pa kasi i-reveal kung sino `yung male idol na ikakasal daw. Pucha! One week pa kaming maghihintay sa revelation ng Shuukan Josei. Basta, I’m really hoping, wishing, praying hard that it’s not any of the Arashi members!

I know, I know Arashi is in the right age to get married. Almost all of them are in their 30s. Jun is turning 30 on August 30. But… I’m not ready with all these things...yet. Call me selfish and immature (at my age!) or whatever but I’m not ready yet with any of the Arashi members getting married especially if it’s MatsuJun. Hindi ko matanggap! And I don’t care what you think of me. Sa ito ang nararamdaman ko, eh! Hindi pa talaga ako ready na mag-aasawa si Jun. O kung sino man sa Arashi. Maglulupasay ako, if ever.

Please, please let it not be any of my boys. Pero come to think of it, hindi lang naman Arashi ang “Super popular male idol”. Puwedeng taga-SMAP or TOKIO. #WishfulThinking. Hehe!

"I'd rather be selfish than see you in the arms of another woman."

Thor: The Dark World.

Yaaaaaaaaay! A far better trailer of Thor: The Dark World. Hindi na bitin ang air time ni Loki! Muntanga ba naman sila na mag-release ng first trailer ng Thor na sa bandang ending nung trailer ipapakita si Loki tapos saglit na saglit pa. Parang kumurap ka lang. I still believe that it's Loki who's bringing the movie. Not Thor. LMAO.

 The movie looks exciting but I'm only excited about my dear Loki. Medyo wapakels ako kay Thor :p.

Shooting Star by Alice Nine

I am super in love with this song right now. One of my F-list on Facebook recommended this song to me a couple of days ago. Wow! What an awesome single!! The melody's so good and the lyrics are so lovely, it fits together perfectly. And Shou's voice is ORGASMIC like it has always been. I also love the PV! It was soooo nice! :D

I've missed Alice Nine so much. Haven't been listening to their music since... 2011? Why did I ever do that? FML.

credit : Japan Music Updates 

Happy August!

Since, it's August already, it means it is MatsuJun's month! *throws confetti*. You know what, when it's August, I'm not looking forward to my birthday anymore but MatsuJun's. Every year, I celebrate his birthday complete with handa and cake or I treat my friends to dinner and have a little birthday party.

I'm just hoping that this year's MatsuJun bash would push through....