Happy 32nd birthday, Jaejoong!

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Happy happy birthday, baby love! (My fellow 86 line!) You were just 26 when I started celebrating your birthday, 6 years later I still do. I love you so much! Thank you for making me kilig and happy all these years (naks parang jowa lang! ) Haha!

xoxo,

BoxerJae!

Kim Jaejoong, my babylove and eternal kimchi boy starred in Gummy's new music video IIYO as a boxer. I think this MV was released today at 2AM (KST) and it was just later this morning that I get to see this.

I've been waiting for this because Jae looks so pogi in the BTS photos I've seen over Twitter. And I've a weakness for men who has boxing skills. LOL!  And it's good seeing Jae with all these boxer stance and i think it suits him well, isn't it? Aww, this makes me want to go back into boxing. Hopefully, this year. Ugh.

Anyway, for all Kim Jaejoong fangirls, here's Gummy's II YO MV with Jaejoong as BoxerJae. Okay, I just came up with that name. Enjoy!

Happy 31st Birthday, Jaejoong!

Happy birthday, baby love!!!

old photo. hihi

couldn't think of anything to say becos my wishes for you are still the same. Just wanna say I love you, tho. And I'll always be your fan!

Jaejoong's back!

credit to watermark

I should have posted this last month but I got too lazy to open my laptop and blog about this. Since I want to be "masipag" in blogging, I only find this time to say something about Jaejoong's discharge from the army. Soooo okay...

I'm so happy that last December 30, 2016, after 21 months (almost 2 years), my baby love is back from his military service! Yaaay! I miss him so damn much and I can't wait for him to do his usual activities as an idol. It just made me a bit sad that he lost weight before his discharge from the army. I was so happy when he became "buff" like the military man that he was but then he decided to lose weight because he was thinking that it's kinda off to be "macho" when he starts touring and performing again.

I was so used to seeing him like this:

See? I prefer him better like that one picture above.

And ohh, since he came back from the army, I think he got obsessed with Instagram again. He's been posting a lot lately on that social media app. I am not complaining tho. I just hope he'd be active again on Twitter as well.

Fighting, Jaejoong! I love you!

#WaitingForJaejoong

(c) mushroomee

78 Days

9 hours

21 minutes

33 seconds 

until Jaejoong's discharge from the army! Yay! Can't believe it's been almost 2 years since you enlisted in the military. I've missed you so damn much. And I can't wait to see you again (naks! Para naman akong gf na naghihintay sa bf na pumasok sa army!)! LOL. Anyway, I just have to wait for 2 months and 19 days and then we're going to see you again being active on the entertainment industry! I really hope to see you by then *crossing fingers*.

Happy 30th birthday, Jaejoong!

credit ; facebook / Kim Jaejoong fan page.

Happy happy birthday, babylove!! I miss you so damn much it hurts! huhu. 300+++ days more before your return. I wish you good health and more projects when you come back (in the entertainment world). I'm excited about your new album and I don't want to miss it because you are very special to me. And by the way, congrats on your promotion in the army. From Private Kim Jaejoong, you are now Corporal Kim Jaejoong. YAAAY! I've always believed in you, babylove. You excel in everything you do~ that's why I'm so proud of you! I love you, Jae! I'll be waiting for you. ♥

Kim Jaejoong's Military Enlistment

(c) jyj.net / google

I should have posted about this last week, but I was too lazy to blog last holy week. LOL. As usual. Anyway, many of Kim Jaejoong fans knew that our favorite idol has already enlisted in the military last March 31. It is mandatory for a Korean male, aged 18-35 years old to enlist for military service. He will be gone for 21 months and expected to be discharged on 30th December 2016.

I am ... well kind of sad and excited for him to enlist. I am sad because, I wouldn't be able to see much of him. No albums, no concerts, no movies, no dramas. No drama tweets on Twitter, won't be able to see updates of himself from his Instagram. Well, that's just the way it is being in the military. As a fangirl of Oppas in Korean entertainment, we have to endure and be prepared of these things.

On the other hand, I'm excited because I've always wanted to see Jae with his military haircut. I've seen one picture of him and oh well, it suits him. Despite the not-so-good looking hair, he's still so effin' handsome. But I thought he's going to shave his head. LOL. For a change, I wanted to see him with a buzz cut. He said he's going to be "baldy". I'm waiting for that, Jae!

Anyway, aside from the "military haircut", I wanted Jae to finish his military service. He's not getting any younger, yah know. He's already 29, he needed to do it as soon as possible for the love of Korea. XD

So yeah, to be totally honest, I am neither that sad nor depressed while he's away doing his duty for his country. I can survive 21 months without seeing him in public. He's going to be all right there inside the camp and being an active soldier. I know and I believe in him.

I'm all excited waiting for his comeback, for his discharge. I'm expecting that after 21 months, he's going to be manlier than ever.

Good luck, Jaejoong! I'm just right here, waiting for you! (Sounds like a wife or girlfriend waiting for her husband/boyfriend. LOL)

Happy "real" birthday, Jaejoong!

(c) original uploader :)

Happy happy birthday loves! I wish all the best to happen in your life! Good luck on your upcoming military service! I love you! ♥

Happy 29th Birthday, Jaejoong!

(c) watermark

Happy happy birthday, Jaejoong!! You are now officially an #ahjussi! Lol. But for me you're only 29 ( i just cant accept the fact that we are getting old.) Don't worry, age is just a number & you don't look 30! Hihi.

I wish for everything good to come in your life because you truly deserve it. Keep on inspiring people! I will always be your fan! ♡ I LOVE YOU from the bottom of my cholesterol-clogged heart! ♡♡♡


Love,

 

Happy 28th Birthday, Jaejoong!

Happy happy birthday, Jaejoong! I don't know what else to say... I think I've said a lot of times, that I'll always stay as your fan (though, today I feel that it's not the same level as before), you're a part of my fangirl life and it'll never change. :) You said you're going to the army this year, I will wait for you! Hihi. I hope after entering the army, your dreams of forming your own band would come to reality. And I know you'd do it. I just wish that you'd have a new Japanese album together with Junsu and Yoochun. Though, it seems impossible for now, I hope in the future, I could hear you guys sing in the Japanese again. I miss hearing you sing Japanese songs. It's not wrong to dream, right? :)

Anyhoo, I'm so glad you already quit smoking. It's bad for your health. Good to know that you know that ;).
Happy Birthday again, and you'll always be my number one Korean dish. XD Stay healthy and happy! I love you! ♥

V-Neck Shirt & Sunglasses

I really find men in white V-neck shirt and sunglasses so fuckin' hot. Not all men can pull-off this outfit. But if a guy/men can pull it off, man, I get weak in the knees and I'm drooling over. Kaya rin, kadalasan ang mga bida ko, kailangan nakasuot ng white v-neck shirt at sunglasses. LOL. Magawa rin nga `yan do'n sa story ni Micky :p.

The Jaejoong feels are coming back.

The Jackal is Coming

I want to watch this movie!!!

Recently, the Jaejoong feels are coming back. I don't know why. Maybe because of my novel Once And For Always? Haha! He was the peg of the hero Jaeden. For me Jaeden is Jaejoong. So that must be one of the reasons. Or maybe because the love that I invested in him is profound and I just can't throw it all away. Well, I love him. But not the MatsuJun levels. I still do.

And I'm stalking Jeje on twitter and guess what? He's still the best troll on twitter! LOL. And I wonder why he loves posting his naked selcas/selfie on twitter. So funny. I cannot stop laughing.

2nd PHR Novel : Once & For Always

 Once And For Always
By Yaney Matsumoto

Date Approved: February 22, 2013
Date Released: July 17, 2013

Kahit ilang beses na habol-habulin niya ito, walang problema sa kanya. What was important was that they were going to be together in the end.

Louise hated Jaeden to the core. Ito lang naman kasi ang asshole na dumurog sa puso at pagtitiwala niya six years ago. Dahil sa pagkabigo at pait na naranasan niya rito ay nagtungo siya sa New York upang kalimutan na ang lahat ng nangyari sa pagitan nila. Nang magdesisyon siya na bumalik sa Pilipinas—she was already a successful pastry chef—ay taas-noong sinabi niya sa mga kaibigan niya na matagal na siyang naka-move on sa ex-boyfriend niya.
And then she saw him again…
Seeing him again made her realize something. She lied. Hindi pa pala siya totally naka-get over sa kanyang ex-boyfriend. Pero hindi niya aaminin iyon kahit kanino. Lalo na kay Jaeden. Ngunit nang muling suyuin siya nito ay tinanggap uli niya ito sa buhay niya. Ngunit mukhang nagkamali na naman siya ng desisyon dahil sa pangalawang pagkakataon ay sinaktan na naman siya nito.

After 5 friggin' months, my 2nd PHR novel is finally released! Weee! :D Sobrang tuwa ko lang nung makita ko yung tag sa wall ko sa FB about my newly released novel. Although, ina-anticipate ko na rin na within this month ang release nito since last month pa nag-text yung Editor ko to change the word count of my first page. Masyado raw kasing mahaba kaya pinapabago niya. So, `ayun nga. 

Anyway, I really like the cover. Ang sensual, eh. Mas nagustuhan ko ito kesa ro'n sa book cover ni Shinji. Kita naman na maganda diba ;)? Kaya lang parang di bagay sa story...kasi hindi ko naman masasabi na sensual ang nobelang ito, `noh. Pero salamat pa rin sa gumawa ng book cover! 

Well, to be honest, I love Jaeden's story more than Shinji's ( from my first PHR novel). Haha. Wala lang, mas feel ko ang hero ko dito kasi this is inspired of Kim Jaejoong. And you know naman (if you're a regular reader of my blog) how much I love Jaejoong. Sabi ko kasi sa sarili ko, dapat bago makagawa ang ibang writer ng story na ang peg ay si Jaejoong (I know hindi lang ako ang may bias sa kanya, hehe!), kailangan maunahan ko na sila! Muwahahaha. Kaya kahit hindi talaga siya ang plano kong gawan ng istorya, pinilit ko pa rin ang sarili ko na mag-isip ng plot na babagay sa kanya. Haha! So, I've come up with Jae's story and ito nga `yon. And btw, it took me 2 months to finish the manuscript. Then it took me almost a month to edit it and finally submitted it in November 2012. At oo, two times pinarevised sa akin ng editor ko `yan. I was freakingly frustrated. Ang hirap kaya! LOL. Pero dahil ayokong i-give-up si Jaeden, eh di, gow pa rin until it was finally approved! Yay!

When I bought the book yesterday, siyempre excited ako agad mabasa. Medyo, nagulat lang ako na, binuo ng editor ang pangalan ng hero. He was supposed to be using "JJ" only. Pero naging "Jaeden" na siya. Oh, well, Jaeden James Lagdameo ang buong pangalan ni hero dito. Okay, kaya ko naman palampasin `yun. At least, mukha pa rin namang si Jaejoong. JAE-joong = JAE-den . O, diba? Love ko naman `yung name kaya carry lang saken.  

TRIVIA:

Jaeden Lagdameo: Like I've said before, the peg for the hero is Jaejoong of TVXQ/JYJ. Isipin n'yo na lang `yung mukha ni Jae sa Mirotic or Stand By U era. Iyon ang iniisip kong fez n'ya nung sinusulat ko ito. For me, it was his most gorgeous era. haha! Jaeden, btw is a Chef. Yep, dahil peg lang niya si Jae, hindi siya KPop idol dito. Haha! But if you get to read this novel and you're also a fan of Jaejoong and you know him well, I think mapi-feel mo `yung pagka-"Jaejoong" nung hero na si Jaeden. At dahil sa isip ko si Jae nga si Jaeden, they are the same age, 27. 

Louise Sarrosa: Her name was supposed to be Rachael Leigh. Got it from Rachael Leigh Cook (used to be my fave Hollywood actress back in Highschool). Kaya lang, naisip ko nagamit ko `yung Rachel na name do'n sa Tatta Hitotsu... `yung friend ni Erika (the heroine). That's why I decided to change the name of the heroine here because they are not the same person. Baka ma-associate nang nakabasa ng novel ko na `yun na si Rachael Leigh at Rachel na friend ni Erika (Tatta Hitotsu...) ay iisa. And then I saw Louise Delos Reyes on TV one night. I really like her name. Sabi ko nga, If I were to have a daughter I'd name her "Louise". So yeah, I finally named my Jaeden's partner Louise. She's 26 and a pastry chef. Bakit pastry chef ang napili kong trabaho ni Louise? Wala lang. LOL. Medyo natuwa lang ako sa mga cupcakes at cakes. I have a friend who has a hobby for baking. Siyempre, dahil wala naman akong alam diyan sa tunay na buhay, research ng bongga. Pati `yung best school for culinary arts abroad namili pa ako. Gusto ko sana sa London eh, pero mas sikat `yung nasa New York ayon sa napagtanungan ko at ayon na rin kay pareng Google.

Supporting Characters:

Micky: He's the overprotective stepbrother of Louise and Jaeden's friend. Kung nagkataon na may Pinoy Cassiopeia na makakabasa ng novel na 'to, #alamna kung sino rin ang peg ng Micky na 'to. haha!   

Yuan: Jaeden's best friend and Louise's boss and the owner of Yuan's Coffee Shop (na originally, Yuan's Coffee ang name), my editor changed it. Ok, whatever suits her. At least andun pa rin `yung "Yuan." haha! And like I said, if you're a Cassie, you'd know instantly kung sino ang peg niya. ;) At may peg din ang Yuan's Coffee Shop, Hollys Coffee. I was so fascinated with that coffee shop. I often see it in Korean dramas. Ang pretty pa ng website nila.

Max: Louise's admirer. He's a photographer. Siyempre kelangan ng third party na hindi naman talaga third party in its real sense, well for me, ha. LOL. At kung sino ang Max na insipiration dito? Sino pa, edi si Max Changmin! Since I love him too, siya ang ginawa kong guy na pagseselosan ni Jaeden.

Miranda: the international fashion and commercial model na friend ni Louise. I love Miranda Kerr as you all know. Si Miranda Kerr ang insipiration ng character na `yan.

Lissy: Louise's friend and the manager of Yuan's Coffee Shop. I haven't thought of someone para maging peg niya. Hmmm...wala akong maisip, eh! 

Special participation of : Jiji--- the blue russian cat of Jaejoong. As in Jiji rin ang ginamit ko sa alagang pusa dito ni Louise. Ang cute kasi niya. O diba, ang bongga ni Jiji the cat!

**If my friends would get the chance to read this novel, hindi na nila maia-associate sa'ken si heroine. Louise and I are a different person. I made her character na wala sa character ko. Well, kay Erika, kahit paano ay may nakuha siya sa'ken. Parang nanay lang na may pinagmanahan. LOL. Pero dito kay Louise kahit isa yata wala siyang namana sa'ken. Ayoko naman kasi isipin ng mga kakilala ko na ako na lang lagi ang bida sa mga nobelang sinusulat ko. haha! Kasi hindi ko naman talaga intensiyon iyon. Nagkakataon lang siguro. 

Anyway, hope you'd get a copy of this book! :)

--kung may magtatanong kung kailan ako magkakaroon ng kasunod nito, hindi ko pa alam. I haven't finished a manuscript in effin' months. Gahd, I'm actually frustrated with myself. I have no motivation and drive to write. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. Huhu. I wanna cry, actually.

Jaejoong's new selca ♥

It's very rare nowadays that I commend a Jaejoong selca or selfie. I have a problem with him these days. I hate it that he's getting skinnier lately. And what's more annoying is that I'm actually heavier than Jaejoong! wtf!!! And when he's skinny, all I want to do is feed him burgers and lots of fattening food so he can gain some weight that is appropriate for his height.

And today, I'm so happy to find a very recent selca of him and he looks like this :

TADAAAA!!!

Kyaaaa!!! ♥____♥ Jaejoong really looks so guwapo here ♥.

credits: photo found on Cassiopeia Philippines via facebook.com 

WTF?

I may not  be as passionate as I used to be about Jaejoong, but what the hell is this FUCKERY?

To be quite honest, I still am not prepared about this. Him getting hitch. Ugh! Huhu. He's still young and he needs to join the army soon. The fuck? He's only 27 (28).

Happy 27th Birthday, Jaejoong!

Happy Birthday Jaejoong! OMG you're getting old (and so am I -.-)
Anyways, as I've always said, you'll always be my favorite bish in the whole galaxy!
I love you~ I hope you eat more and earn the puffy cheeks once again. hate seeing you
all tired, haggard and ugly. 

The Love That Fades Away...

Hi!

It's been awhile since I last posted in this blog. it's more than 2 months i think. Got too lazy to write and update. Anyway, so many things has had happened during the past months in my fangirl life. I don't know if it's worth saying this here. It isn't much of a big deal, it's just that I've already changed bias in the original line-up of Dong Bang Shin Ki. From a Hero Jaejoong biased, I'm now a Max Changmin biased and totally loving it ^^. And I'm learning to move on from the Kim Jaejoong craze I was having for one whole year. Too many things, had changed and all I can say is, I cannot look at Jaejoong the same way before.

You could say I'm crazy for feeling this way for a certain Pop Idol in my age. I'm already 25 and yet I behave like an idol-crazed teenager. I don't know, I've always been like this since I started fangirling at age 10, Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys, Hanson era. I've always believe that "once a fangirl, will always be a fangirl." <-- can't remember where I got this from :p but anyway, going back to the Jaejoong story, yes, he isn't my bias anymore.

I know I've said cheesy things, like he'll always be my no.1 and blah blah.. but yeah, things turn differently, when someone you loved and adored so dearly disappointed you so much :(.  If any Kim Jaejoong, Hero Jaejoong fans would come across here and read this blog entry, she could definitely guess why this happened to me. All I can say is, when that love and adoration reached its ending, it didn't happen instantly. It was more like a process.

My love for Jaejoong is still there, of course, it doesn't go away suddenly, right? Most especially, being emotionally attached to him for one year, though, it isn't as intense as it used to be.

Today is...

My First anniversary as a  Kim Jaejoong and TVXQ fan!!

/wahaha

Oha Oha! umabot na kame ng 1 year ni JJ /blush

I can still remember the date, it was March 4, 2011 when I became a TVXQ fan and Jaejoong instantly became my bias.

This PV is actually the reason why I became hooked with Tohoshinki

PV Stand by U [ Sweet Room Version]



I owe it a lot to Narimiya Horiki, actually. Because if I wasn't interested to see his Sweet Room drama (which was very sensual and Narimiya-san is really sexxay and hot /sweat )  I wouldn't be interested to know more about TVXQ/Tohoshinki :D  I was swept away with the song "Stand By U"....  And Jaejoong's voice captured my heart /blush

my other precious boys ♥
I cannot be swayed, i love TVXQ more when they are five.

My ultimate Kpop Bias ♥ Kim Jaejoong
I love you to every bits and pieces honey...baby..love..

Happy Anniversary to us! yaaay!

9G The Red Room Exhibit 2012.02.25

Hi y'all!

Last Saturday I went to CassPh 9G: The Red Room Exhibit at Fully Booked, Bonifacio High Street.

And I went alone. All by myself. With no friends to tag along.

...sigh...

I really don't have much friends in this fandom :(

Last year, when I went in 8G event, I tagged a friend who isn't a TVXQ fan at all. LOL.

I'm not sure if she enjoyed last year, I bet not. Coz like I said, she isn't a fan of the group.

And because I don't want to bother someone's precious time, I decided to come in the event all by myself.

I'm amazed of the things I've seen on the display. There were a lot of fandom stuffs/merchandise/goods/collectibles/ or whichever way you want to call it  /omg . 

As in a WHOLE lot. A fangirl would always want to have. I won't deny that I'm envious of those stuffs. Like a normal fangirl, I want to have those too and I bet, those merchandise have costs almost half a million combine. That's a whole lot of money spent.

I can't imagine myself spending so much like that just to support my idols. Haven't done that either for Arashi.

I've actually have a pledge for Arashi. I will only spend for a full-studio album, concert DVD and selected concert goods, other than that, NO. I've better things to spent on my money other than fandom stuffs. And as for TVXQ and JYJ, my pledge is an album... or if there's still a budget to buy a concert  DVD... I've yet to decide on that. I'd rather save up my money to watch them live in concert instead :) .

I was surprised this morning while I was uploading the pictures on my Facebook... /shock

I've taken 242 pics or so of the stuffs being displayed on the exhibit! Whoa~ And I don't even have a single picture taken of myself.

 Haven't got the chance to take a picture with the Jaejoong standee /no .

I'm too shy to ask the other fangirls around to have my picture taken with my JJ.

But why did I attend the exhibit even If I'm alone?

It's all because I wanted to have the JYJ In Heaven album (black version). It's Limited Edition, with only 300 copies provided straight from CJeS (<-- JYJ's agency). It comes with freebies: 2 posters, a limited JYJ shirt, JYJ drawstring and JYJ notepad. A fangirl must-have!

And yes I got all the freebies! Yaay~ /XD

P/S I don't know why some pictures are blurred after uploading them here o.O

This entry ends here. Can't think of anything else to say~ kekeke.

Happy 26th (real) Birthday Jaejoong ♥

 Baby!Jae

Young!Jae

Teen!Jae

Bunny!Jae

Mirotic!Jae

Handsome!Jae

Boss!Jae

Airport King!Jae

Happy Birthday My Beloved Jejung-sama!!!
Things maybe tough for you guys and for us fans, but we'll keep fighting `til the end!
We will forever support you, through happy, sad, and tough times~
I hope your smile will never fade away~
Keep going strong!
I love you ♥