So darn happy!

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So yesterday I got a good news. Curtis and Katrina's story is good as approved! Yay! For the first time, in my writing career (at talagang may gano'n?), ngayon lang ako nakatanggap ng 'APPROVED' na feedback from my editor. Siyempre, hindi kasali iyong sa MSV dahil ang MS na ipinasa ko roon na approved ay reject naman ng PHR pagkatapos kong i-edit ng kaunti. Anyway, while reading half of the text message of my editor, bigla akong napatili sa office. Approved daw, eh. I'm so effin' happy!

The only catch is, ang dami ko raw English at kailangan kong bawasan, pati yung word count ko. Lagpas din naman kasi ako sa word count at marami din akong redundancies. Anyway, I'm so happy lang talaga! Thank you so much, Lord for the answered prayer~ :) Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng 2 approved MS in a year. Achievement iyon. hahaha.

I'm still waiting for the release of my 3rd PHR novel. Sana lumabas na ngayong October.

Yatta!

Yep, that's right! YATTA~~ finally, finally, I was able to finish writing Curtis and Kat's story last night or shall I say, this madaling araw!!! I slept for barely 3 hours just to finish this manuscript. I'm really glad I'm done with it. time to move on. Lol. Hopefully, it'll get an "approved" feedback. *crossing fingers*. I'm planning to submit it this Saturday or probably next week. well, it depends on my friend. I asked her to beta-read it for me.

Hi July! What's up with me?

This was supposed to be posted yesterday.

Hi, July!

It’s like I’m just celebrating New Year last night and boom! We’ve already reached the half of the year 2014! Time really does flies so fast, they say! Just two more months and we’re entering the “ber” months.  And the worst part of this is I’m getting older again (and again). Phew!

Anyway, I just pass by this site because I’ve got nothing to do. I’m so bored and I’m in the office right now. I should have been writing a few words or at least a chapter to my current manuscript but I’m just too sluggish to think of anything— scenes and dialogues.  By the way, I’m finally writing Curtis Feliciano’s story. If you still remember the band Vampyres of my hero Shinji Serizawa in my novel “Tatta Hitotsu no Koi”, Curtis is the bassist of that said rock band and I’ve mentioned him in one of my entries here some time ago.  I’m done with Chapter 4. The problem is I don’t know what to do with them (my characters) now. Lol! Seriously, this happens to me all the time. I get to a certain chapter and then I get confused and lost at the next chapter and I’d get stuck for a few days or overly so, months. I wish this wouldn’t get any longer than 3 days. Well, I actually had something in mind, but I’m not sure whether to push it or not. I don’t know. Heck, I really don’t know what to do! >.<

But I must figure this out since I am the writer. Gambarimasu. I do hope that I could finish this manuscript before July ends. Haha! I swear, I told myself I have to finish Curtis’s story before June ends but what happened now? I’m only in Chapter 4 going to Chapter 5. Gahds.  And I wish that I’d get to finish writing Curtis’s story and then get approved even before Micky ‘s story get to be released. I think that it’d be cool. I have something to look forward to before this year ends.  And oh yeah, I’m back to writing pa-cute/wholesome… not really wholesome story with this one. Lol!

Sa Wakas!

Woohoo! Finally, after 48 years, natapos ko na rin ang story ni Micky!!! I thought hindi ko na siya matatapos ever kasi talagang nauurat na ako sa kanila ni Marla. Lol. Eh, paano naman kasi, I've been writing Micky's story since late October 2013 and then last Monday ng madaling araw ko lang siya natapos sulatin. O, di ba, ang tagal-tagal na. Ito na rin ang pinakamatagal na nobelang naisulat ko sa tagal ko nang pagta-trying hard na magsulat. Usually, a novel takes me two months to write it. Ewan ko ba bakit ako inabot ng ganito katagal. Katamaran? Maybe. At gaya nga ng madalas kong sabihin, hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko sa mga bida pagdating ng Chapter 5 onwards! At kadalasan din, sumusobra ako sa required word count. Ito ngang kay Micky ay hindi ko na alam kung paano ko pa babawasan at napakahaba pa rin niya. Sana umubrang pang 144 pages. If ever lang naman na ma-approve. Di pa rin naman ako confident na papasa siya. Well, hopefully.

Anyhoo, as a writer ng story ni Micky, natutuwa naman ako sa sinulat ko. Siyempre ako ang writer, eh. Lol. Masaya talaga ako na natapos ko na siya. Kasi ibig sabihin no'n, I can go back to being a reader once again. Whenever I write a novel, I refrain myself from reading books. Nakasanayan ko na. Sobrang tagal kong sinulat yung story ni Micky, so, `ayun, ang tagal ko ring di nakapagbasa ng mga libro. Bukas na bukas, I promise to go back into reading again. Ang dami ko pa namang books na pinagbibili na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin nababasa. Pero sana, hindi naman ako maadik sa pagbabasa kasi gusto ko naman makapagsulat ulit. Eh, diba plano ko nga maka-atleast more than one novel this year? Hehe. Sana magawa ko at hindi tamarin ang aking writer self. I plan to write pa naman, Curtis Feleciano's story. This time, totoo na at hindi na ako magpapaliguy-ligoy pa. May naisip naman na akong plot para sa kanya. Hmm. Sana okay din at mapagtagumpayan ko. Huwag lang talaga akong tatamarin kasi patay tayo diyan.  Baka one novel per year na naman ang kalalabasan ni Yaney Matsumoto. Lol. Huwag naman sana, di ba? Though, hindi ko naman gustong karirin ang writing, siyempre, iba pa rin `yung feeling na marami kang nakikita na published novel na gawa mo.

I just really hope na ma-approve ang story ni Micky! Ang hirap kayang sulatin no'n. Hindi naman complicated ang plot niya, basta nahirapan lang talaga ako. Haha!

Of Social Gatherings & Writing Plans~

Hi! It’s already June and it means, it’s Ninomiya Kazunari month! Grabe, ang bilis talaga ng panahon. Imagine, parang no’ng isang araw January lang, tapos ngayon, it’s June na! Pagkatapos nito, ilang tulog at kembot lang August na!

I look forward to do so many things this month. I went to Cavite/Tagaytay last Saturday-Sunday with my friends in Vanadikz group (readers ng isa sa best-selling author ng PHR and one of my favorite writers din, si Miss Vanessa.) Sobrang saya lang kahapon. Kahit hindi kami kompleto, sobrang enjoy talaga.

Man of Steel, siyempre on June 12! Like I said on my previous post, I’m so effin’ excited about this :D. Then, my mudrabelles 67^th Birthday tomorrow. Simpleng handa lang siguro bukas for mama. On the 8^th of June, I’ll get my first shot for my medication for this month. I turned down a gala kasi I have to stay at home muna on weekends because I have a brainstorming & a writing session with my writing buddies the following week, 15^th-16^th.  And on the 17^th, it’s Nino’s Birthday :D! Don’t know what to do yet to celebrate his birthday. Hmmm… Medyo matagal pa naman, so, yeah.   On the 22^nd day of this month, 3 of my friends will be celebrating their birthdays. Since, sunod-sunod ang birthdays nila, we decided (at talagang kasama ako sa nag-decide? Haha!) that they celebrate it together on the same day. Since, my schedule’s a bit full on weekends, final date na for the celebration ang 22.

Aside from my social gatherings for this month, I plan to continue writing my currently-in-progress. I hope to finish this before the month ends. Ambisyosa ko lang, no? Well, kasi naman, ilang months nang naka-tengga ang story ni Andres at Georgeann. Don’t know what to do na. Siguro kaya hindi ko masulat-sulat nang tuloy-tuloy ang manuscript na ‘to kasi walang peg ang hero ko. Hindi ko kasi ma-imagine ang mukha niya. Haha! When I write kasi, dapat may visual peg ang hero ko, kaso dito kay Andres wala akong maisip na peg. Tingin ko lang, mas effective ang pagsusulat ko kung may inspirasyon ang hero ko. I need to find a visual peg for Andres. Hmm..sino kaya? I really want to finish it na because I have so many plans to write. If ever I’d get to finish Andres, edi masaya! I’ll move on to writing my dream trilogy. Oh yes! I’m thinking of writing a trilogy :p. Wala lang, kasi kasama naman talaga `yan sa writing goals ko, eh. Tsaka, may *aherm* may nagre-request saken thru PM in FB about the other 3 members of Vamypyres. Sana daw may stories din sina Drew, Radley at Curtis. I already have titles for the 3 books. I got the inspiration from Aerosmith songs that has Alicia Silverstone in the music video: Cryin’. Amazing. Crazy. The problem is, I don’t have the title of the trilogy yet. At kay Drew pa lang ako nakaisip ng plot. Na hindi pa concrete *masulat nga sa notebook to para hindi mawala ang ideas ko*. Wish ko lang, diba sana ang sipag-sipag ko para masimulan ko na rin ‘to. Kaya lang, tamad ako, eh. As in sobra. You can put a crown on me as the laziest frustrated writer . Lol. Procrastinate kasi nang procrastinate ang peg ko. Kakainis lang, no? Haay! Dayum. Dami kasi gumugulo sa isip at atensiyon ko! Tapos, I have a writing challenge with my friends, who also shares the same passion for writing. We created a blog for that writing challenge and then we get a certain word topic from a random word generator and then we’ll write something about that word. It could be in a form of essay, story or anything that you could think of.  We’ll post our work on the blog by the end of the month. The submission will start on June 30. Shucks! Pressure kasi, diba nga I still don’t have the drive to write. Tapos hindi pa  masyadong ma-grasp ng braincells ko yung word na “skulking”. Leche. Ang hirap ng word, ha?

I hope I’ll be able to do all my writing goals and plans. Hopefully, matapos ko na ang istorya ni Andres at Georgeann kasi leche naman, ang tagal na nun no!  Bawal na talaga ang tamad >.<!

When Laziness Strikes Again

I hate myself.

I’ve always wanted to write. But I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I can’t seem to write this past few weeks... or months. Writer's block? Nah. I already had the scenes, the conflict and what’s going to happen in the “ending” of my story stored in my brain, but I just couldn’t put them into words. I’m stuck at chapter 3 and I’m getting so frustrated with myself. Sometimes, I feel like I could not go on with this anymore. :(

I really want to finish this story… because it’s really interesting, well at least for me! Hihihi. Like what I desire to achieve, I want to have at least 5 manuscripts finished and approved this year (dahil ambisyosa ako, hahaha!) but what the hell am I doing? I’m being such a lazy bitch! As always. Every day, I’m telling myself that I will write again and continue the story that I’m working on, but when I get home after work, I’d never get myself to writing. I’ve more time on the internet, even on weekends! I even prefer watching DVDs or read books! Ugh. 

Hopefully, I will work on this problem and get my ass back to writing. I really want to finish and be done with Georgeann and Andres’s story x_x.

Something...

Walang masyadong something sa buhay ko. Well, hindi kasi ako ang tipo na masyadong nagbo-broadcast about my most personal life on line. So let's skip that part. Hehehe.

Well, ang something lang na masasabi ko ay nakakasawa palang mag-revise ng manuscript. Kelangan ulet-ulet? Nakakainis pero wala akong magagawa kahit umay naumay na ako sa story ni JJ at Louise, I need to make it right para ma-approved na sya ng editor ko. Na malamang sa ngayon ay nakukulitan na rin sa akin. Pero makulit din naman siya. Saka ko na ikukuwento if ma-approve na si JJ *hopefully, crossing fingers*.

I want to write another story, pero hindi kay Curtis Feliciano which I planned originally. May new idea sumagi sa isip ko 2 weeks ago. Medyo hindi ko pa sure kung ipe-pursue ko iyon, since I have this feeling na hindi pang PHR ang peg ng story na naisip ko. Waaaaahhhhh! It seems difficult to write actually. Baka sabihin na naman eh di "hero-material" ang bidang lalaki ko. Basta sa isip ko maganda ang story ni Aidan. Oh yes, my character has a name already. And he's a lawyer :) hihihi. I just hope maisulat ko nang matino ang supposedly story/love story niya.

I need to move on from JJ and Louise!!! Kakasawa na silang dalawa XD

Hello 2013!

My very first entry for this year...

Hello 2013, Hello January! I have so many plans and dreams for this year in terms of my so-called "writing" career. Like what I've said in my previous entries, I want 2013 to be the year where I can focus more on writing stories. Pero sad to say, til now I'm not finish revising JJ's story. I'm stuck at Chapter 6 and I don't know what to do next T^T. I really want it to be approved. Ang kaso hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang gagawin ko sa kanya. Sana may magbigay sa'ken ng inspiration to be able to finish his story. Haist. This is what I hate about myself. Hindi ako makapagsulat ng nobela nang dire-diretso. Madalas na naliligaw ako -.- Ang goal ko pa naman eh, matapos ko sya before mag-end ang 2012, pero kumusta naman, January na! Basta dapat by this weekend, tapos na si JJ so I can submit it back to my editor. And so I can move on to another story dibaaaa. Pero siyempre, we have to stay positive! I can do this!

Anyway, change topic dahil masakit sa dibdib pag-usapan ang aking manuscript, my very goal for this year is to lose weight. Not only to look good, fit and beautiful, CHAR! But for health reasons as well. My doctor advised me to lose weight. So siyempre, I'm kinda pressured din saka I'm shocked to find out how overweight I am right now! :O And my biggest motivation to lose weight is, I'm going to attend a wedding of a dear friend in September. Nakakahiya naman sa magiging partner ko na I'm obese in my dress~ LOL. So yeah, I really have to lose weight so I can be the next Victoria's Secret Angel! XD

Shinji, we finally made it!

oh my gosh! 'til now I can't believe it, that finally, after months and months of doing the revision and a 24 hours sleep deprivation (to meet my deadline, which i failed to do so), Shinji's story is approved! yaaay! :D I'm sooooo happy I can't properly express what I'm feeling the moment I received the email from my editor last Saturday.


I actually, almost gave up writing his story because I felt that the story wasn't moving the way I wanted it to. But thanks to Ninomiya Kazunari's 'Niji', I got inspired and was able to finish Shinji's story while listening to that song (on a loop)  :)


I can't wait for my first PHR book to come out! All these feelings!!!!

Shinji...

So, I'm revising Shinji's story...

Am I back on the track? Well, hopefully. It's been 2 years since the first time I wrote his story. 

Here was the story,

Back in 2010, I submitted Shinji's story. After several months, I got a text from the editor ,she said it was approved. I waited and waited for my book to be published but it never happened. A year had passed and I didn't have any news regarding Shinji's story. Of course, I got upset and everything. I didn't get to write any new story because I was mostly busy with my fangirl life. And I wasn't sure anymore if I really want to pursue a career in writing. Or do I really want to write romance stories? Or would I just stay as a reader? Those questions kept ringing in my head. And during those times I was also BITTER. Bitter about Shinji's fate. WTF. My friend, my writer friend knew about this.

So yeah, early this year, February, I got a text and an email from my new editor. The verdict of my manuscript: REVISION.

When I got the email, I thought, it was really okay but I’m pissed off as well. Pissed off because I've waited for almost 2 years and you now tell me that Shinji's story is for REVISION????!!!! You could have notified me before so I could have revised his story a long time ago! It is 2012 already, for christ's sake!!!

I told my friend about this, and she encouraged me to give it a try. To try to re-write Shinji’s story. I did. Earlier this year, I wasn’t so eager to revise that manuscript. WTF. I’m tired of that story already. I want to move on. But my friend said I should let Shinji have his happy ending so we could all finally move on with each other. Months had passed and I only get to write a few sentences. I can’t seem to finish a chapter. I don’t know why. Maybe, I don’t have enough inspirations or the motivation or the willingness to write. And another thing, fandom eats a lot of my time.

But then something happened. I was working out one night and was listening to a Hanson song entitled, “Lost without Each Other”.  An idea popped my head. I told myself I’m going to write a story base on that song.  I got excited. I already made a name for my hero and heroine. I texted my friend about it and she said, before I write a new story, I should finish writing Shinji’s story first. I thought about it for awhile. She made sense. So from then on, I decided I will finish Shinji’s story first before jumping into writing Max’s story.

And that’s what I’m doing right now. I’m really trying hard to revise Shinji’s story. He’s probably pissed off with me right now. He’s been telling me he wanted to end up with Erika already and have his happily ever after with her. I should make his dreams come true. Naawa na ako sa kanya.

 So, since 2 weeks ago, during the weekends, I’m revising Shinji’s story. And while writing, I listen to Baroque music. ← This combination really helps! Try it. Words, ideas and scenes were like a flowing river on my brain. They keep on coming :)

I want to finish Shinji’s story before… September..? Well, hopefully.

Now, if you’re going to ask me if I still want to become a well-known Romance Writer, I would say, Yes. I still want to be a Romance Writer. And I realized, I've never given up that dream.

Ang Daan Patungo sa Pagsusulat ng Aklat na Pula

hihihi.

natatawa ako sa title ng blog post na 'to pero wala akong maisip na mas babagay pa sa title nito.

So yeah, I attended a writing workshop last Saturday at Callospa Resort in Antipolo. It was for free and it's sponsored by the publishing company Bookware Publishing. I've actually published a book from them last year, it was the reason I was invited for this workshop :D

The place was kinda far, it was a good thing we have a service provided by the company. It was also really nice and peaceful and blah blah blah :)

I've met a lot of awesome writers who have already established a career in writing and I can help but feel a little envious because I've wanted to be one too! Some are really young, i think. I'm assuming I'm older by 2 years or so. Some have an approved manuscript and are waiting to be published. We were composed of 16 participants.

The workshop was conducted by two facilitators; Miss Apple and Miss Elvie who are both editors for My Special Valentine. Miss Elvie tackled about How to write a romance novel. It was more like a refresher to me since I'm already aware of what she had discussed because I have attended a romance writing workshop similar to that almost 3 years ago. For Miss Apple, about how to write, the do's and don'ts of writing a Desire novel, an imprint of My Special Valentine. I fondly call Desire novel as the "red book" or "aklat na pula". Why "Red Book" or "Aklat na Pula"? It's because the cover of the said book is red. 

I've always dreamed of writing a novel for this imprint. I think it's COOL. I'm exposed to reading a lot of mature novels and recently been addicted to reading fanfictions (Jaejoong's to be more specific) in the SMUT genre. But I don't have the courage to write because I know I'm not good in writing love scenes or sexy scenes in a novel.  I'm actually not good in writing in general! I'm just a trying hard one! LOL. I've tried writing a smut fanfic though, it was for MatsuJun! And it was so hard! 

We did a lot of Activity in the workshop. It's sooooo fun but I admit it wasn't easy for me. I was forced to squeeze the creative juices in my brain...if I have any. The last activity we did was to write a love scene from the three video clips from the movies that were presented to us: The Notebook, Kim Basinger and Micky Roarke movie (which I can't recall the title), and Scent of a Woman (Korean drama, starring Kim SunAh and Lee DongWook). I chose Scent of  a Woman. I think I've written a really nice pre-lovescene scene but wasn't able to write the "kaganapan" or the act of love scene. I find it hard to write it on the spot, to be really honest. Mind wasn't functioning on that time /sigh.

 I really want to try writing a Desire novel and I want to know how to write it in the right way that's why I participated in this workshop. I really admire the romance writers who conveys this genre with the characters doing "it" not just for the sake of doing "it" but as a reader you feel the love, passion, lust, desire, romance between the hero and heroine when you're reading them. I want  to write a really nice love scene not just for the heck of writing it. I've wanted to write a mature story just like my favorite romance writers. If that happens, I'm sure, my heart would definitely soar with pride. And Oh, Miss Apple told us that the Desire imprint is the most in-demand books on their company that's why they're encouraging the writers to write for this imprint.

After, I finish the revision of my manuscript for the other publishing, I'll start writing the sexy book. Yaay! LOL.

my workshop classmates :)